Lost Papers.

Last night I dreamed that I was on a boat and I had a mission. The boat was a small one on a small lake and there was a small plane in the sky as well. The water in the small lake was misty looking and there was algae on the surface as well. I was on the boat and it was an older boat, the kind with the big wheel in the front that rolls around and the water spills off each slat. There was some reason that I had to find something in the lake. The people in the plane were trying to get it from me. I was behind the boat in a floatation device and my writing was scattered across the water. I tried to save the wet pages but the were quickly disintegrating. 

April 2nd, Years Ago. Sewers. Aquariums. Buses.

I was with several people in a tunnel. I believe they were sewers. We tried to get away from someone who was all-knowing. We had to acquire some charms or tools. He was knew where we were but we were always on the move so he couldn't catch us for some reason. There was a girl who tried to save us but she couldn't so she gave us some things to take with us on our journey. We had to leave quickly. 

There was some sort of assembly in an auditorium. I had to leave to get a cocktail. The crowd acted very odd. I called Julian and he wouldn't speak to me. He told me that he had been on medication and it was my fault. I could see his face in my mind and it made me sad. I went to his house and was waiting for him. There were two dogs like Gene and they were flipping out trying to hump everything. I was trying to put them on the porch but they were stronger than me. 

Rob was a bus driver and I rode his bus. I had killed someone and disposed of his body. He got back on the bus a ghost and I was very scared. Rob drove to the place where we buried his body in the desert and he was just being dug up. We were trying to find a shady place to sit down. I ran away and his ghost chased after me. 

Wednesday, March 29th, Years Ago

I was in an aquarium with a family which wasn't mine. My dream sister fell in the dolphin tank and the dolphins ate her. I was living in a snowy hole in the ground and wandered into a dorm room. I ended up in a shopping center where I bought a Chinese mate´. I then walked to a friend's house to talk to him. His family was eating dinner and I peeked into the windows. He was downstairs on the computer. I was nervous about coming in but when I saw him he slapped me five. 

I was outside my parents' house with other people and my sister. The street was flooded with many feet of water and a huge killer whale was after my sister. I told her to go inside because it was headed right for her. She didn't listen and we all ended up in his belly. But we had massive rings and if we intertwined them they did some sort of magic but we couldn't fit them together. 

Rob was in an African tribe. I believed he was the leader. We were in a room together and I was trying to get him to notice me. The shaman was trying to determine by tasting three different bottles of cheap wine whether or not his enemies would kill him. 

A Dream Of The Sea. July 13th.

Last night I dreamed that I was on a beach; it was a dream beach full of glittering golden sand and the sun was high and bright. I was alone at the shoreline and the water was full of people I knew from my past. They each came up to see me individually and I said my part and they said theirs and I wished them well and sent them back to sea. I saw many people I used to know and they all seemed mostly well. And I walked down the beach alone as the sun was setting and then I heard sounds of scraping sand behind me. I turned around and it was you and I felt my heart leap and flop in my chest. You spoke to me gently and kindly and I remembered who I used to know and how I used to love you. We walked together for a long time and it was almost dark. When the last glints of sunlight sprinkled across the water as the sun set down behind the sea, you told me that you had to leave, that you had to go back to the water. I hugged you goodbye and then I sat on the shore and cried, for you and for all the other people whom I have lost to selfishness and stupidity or just even to the folly of youth.

Firey Wreckage. June 30th.

Last night I dreamt that there was a lovely little cafe around the corner from my house that I lived in with my parents. It was a french place and they served foie gras omelettes. I was trying to talk to the owner about the omelettes and whether I should order them or not. I wanted to go swimming but for some reason I could not.

Then I was hanging out with my brother and someone came into the development in which we lived with the intention of taking it over. He was some sort of octopus creature and I had a little brother who rode around on a really fast scooter. We watched a plane crash into the sand by the beach which was right outside the city and a woman came running up out of the firey wreckage. I went into a diner to meet my boyfriend because we had an understanding that if something really bad were to happen we would meet at this diner.

I got there and we talked and then I went outside to talk to my little brother who was riding around the parking lot on his scooter. I was psychic and I could hear the caravan of crazy scientists coming. They got there just as I was getting my brother onto the scooter with me and we got right to the gates but they closed in front of us and these growths came up out of the top of them. I said, "Let's just climb them." And we started to climb the gates but the streets outside were full of black limos and even the other cars further up the street were stopped and the people were running out of them and up the street in terror.

We climbed back down and the crazy octopus man came and took my brother. He threw some weird powder on him and gave him a shot. We were all in someone's living room. My brother started writhing on the floor and groaning. He began to turn into a very bloody, wet, sea shell kind of like a clam. The octopus and his assistant were grinning and telling each other that it was working. They moved the clamshell out into the sun and it opened up and my brother was sitting inside of it having been made into a clam. He was not terribly unhappy about it but he said he could get used to it if they installed some kind of wheels on the bottom and he could ride around all the time.

Later I was in a huge mansion and I was looking through things I used to have when I was a kid. I lived next door to the Beatnick Barbershop which had been totally redesigned and was much bigger and blue and my friend from 5th grade Jessica Ash worked there. I remembered walking by and seeing her before and being confused. I was in the mansion after I talked to her in the shop for a while and I was watching videos of when I first was dating Walker and they were uncomfortable, weird videos. Then these crazy ladies dressed up like burlesque chickens came wandering in like it was their house and perhaps it was. They came in from doing a show at an arena that I was just looking at a poster for.

June 10th

I was in a large school where everyone was made to follow each other up flights and flights of stairs. We were supposed to be in alphabetical order but that wasn't working out very well. We got to the top of the building and there was a huge spaceship looking thing. It was like another world. It was all greys and greens and browns like some weird science fiction movie and everyone was walking around like a zombie doing whatever this weird alien boss guy told them to do. He wasn't actually an alien; he was more like an ancient man of the army. He had this uniform all made of brown metal and he had this huge hair which dangled down, dreadlocks, onto his back. He was rather angry and everyone did what he said. He told them that earth as we know it is destroyed and that we must live in the skies for ever.

Everyone had been hypnotized except for myself and I was a rather angry man who was intent on saving my girlfriend and everyone else from this life of thoughtless subservience. He was making the people into members of his army one by one and it was impossible to really go anywhere but where he had you stationed. There were these arms that came down off the ship (which was really just a tall building) and people controlled them and watched what was going on inside from them. The weird boss guy was taking a break and going up onto the roof and I followed him up there because I was the only person on whom the hypnotism did not work. He thought that made me strong and wanted to make me his assistant. He was making me all sorts of promises and he promised to tell me his biggest secret if I would join him.

So, I followed him up onto the roof and he had already given me a sword. He was waltzing around giving some dramatic speech about how humans are unnecessary and their whole lives are just little games that he could play with his chess boards. We looked down onto what I had thought was the earth he and his minions had destroyed but it all looked normal to me and he just had everyone hypnotized. He turned around and as soon as he did so I swung my sword and made a perfectly clean swipe of his neck with a little bit of his left shoulder. He continued his speech for a minute without realizing what had happened but he began to feel funny and so he turned around to me with an angry and suspicious look in his eyes. I was standing a bit above him on the jagged roof of the ship and so I kicked my foot out and pushed his head off of his body. His eyes widened and he fell over dead.

Next thing you know I am back on earth in a movie theatre as myself. I call my girlfriend who was my girlfriend on the ship (as much as you could have a girlfriend on that ship) and I tell her that everything was a lie and that she should just come back to earth but everyone is still under his power even though he is dead and I realize that they will etch out the rest of their meaningless lives as minions aboard what may as well be an imaginary spaceship. I say goodbye and tell her I will speak to her soon though I am sure I won't.

Saturday June 9th

I was living in a house with my parents which was haunted. All sorts of terrible things started happening and so we had to leave. I was on my way out and I ran into Eric Owens with two very cute dogs. I was going to adopt Kody from my parents but I decided I wanted a smaller dog. Then I was flying through the air trying to find a swimming pool. I was flying through the air with some expert flier who was a really young kid but whom I was in love with. I waited in line at a pool for some sort of drink but I didn't want it when I got up to the front of the line because it was a gross drink and they wouldn't let me in the pool anyway.

After that I was in school and I was in a dark room trying to figure out how it all worked. I was having a hard time figuring it out and I realized that I didn't have any negatives. I searched through this dresser looking in the drawers for someone else's negatives that I could use and I found a bunch of boring prints and then a book of photos with descriptions of the places and the people and why they were important to someone. In the bottom drawer I found negatives that I had from high school. I was about to try to start printing them when I realized that there was a huge puddle on the floor by my backpack. Someone in the class with me told me it was a little religious girl from the class next door. I raced next door and started screaming and telling the teacher that all my books were ruined and that someone was going to pay for it. I knew who did it because she had this snide little smirk on her face. She did it because I said something about Jesus being the ghost of Shakespeare's grandfather which is obviously a bastardization of the line in Ulysses.

Late May and Vampires.

I was watching a movie about a family of a father and two little girls. They had a huge and beautiful house and overall were a very happy family with well-behaved little kids. The father put the girls to bed and decided to have a swim in the hot tub which was on the other side of the house and through a long hallway. He unlocked a door which had been locked for a very long time and he found in the hallway the bodies of vampires which were not yet awake. He was very frightened but didn't do anything. The vampires woke up and then the dream flashed to the little girls. They were laying in bed bored and they tried to figure out something to do that wouldn't wake up their father, whom they assumed to be asleep. They decided to get in the hot tub and they climbed out their window and walked over the slanted roof to get to the other side of the house. I woke up just as they were about to open the door of the hallway to find the vampires and their father.

Zombie Vampires and Roller Skates.

Megan, Sulima and I were walking around a mall trying to find somewhere to eat dinner. All of the restaurants were closed and so we ended up at the only place which was open, The Roller Skating Rink. I wanted to roller skate so I broke away from them and went to the desk to order some food and to get the skates. There was a weird woman behind the counter who didn't understand my requests for pizza and popcorn I think because she didn't hear me. She yelled at me and then explained that she was partially deaf.

As I waited for my food to finish cooking I roller skated around the arena which was very soon filled with people who were not moving. They were going very slowly and I soon discovered that they were some kind of zombie vampires who were just waiting for the sun to go down before they could feed. I was very scared and I ran away and discovered that I could fly. I went up to the roof of a building and I could tell that they were turning. I didn't know if they could also fly or if I could fly because I was already one of them and I just didn't notice. I jumped from rooftop to rooftop until I was in the woods and I found a very tiny house where a little frog lived. He invited me in and his house was very wet and soggy. We watched TV and this is what we watched:

I was in a small restaurant with someone and we kept glancing over at another table. We had all been watching a Simpsons' episode or something on a big TV that was in the corner of the room at the top of the wall. I wanted to go over and talk to the couple because I was sure the boy liked me. Somehow what was happening on the episode started happening in the restaurant and everyone panicked. The restaurant had filled with colored smoke and people were using buckets to capture the smoke and throw it out the one window.

I just remembered something else from earlier in my dreams. I was hanging out with Xavier and my sister and Maxwell Sindell and Marco and there was some strange thing having to do with the bathroom where everyone wanted to take shower at the same time and yet nobody could. I was wearing something very strange and I spent a long time looking for the matching pieces of this outfit.